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Archive for April, 2009

Have you ever wondered if you were feeling depressed because of a situation you are in? How do you decide if you should make changes? I mean, what if you think you’re in a icky situation, but you’re really not. Its just because you have a weird view of things at the moment. On the other hand, what if it really is the situation that has you depressed?

When does the clarity come? I’m ready for the light bulb to turn on at any time so I can have my “a-ha” moment!!

On Friday, April 17, 2009, the world lost the most beautiful, caring person. My good friend, Kelly, was shot and killed by her husband. Nothing could save her. Not the hospital less than 1 mile form her house, not the flight that took her to the trauma hospital, nothing in modern medicine could save her.

She left behind 5 beautiful children. Actually, she was taken from them. These kids range in age from 2-17. Her little girl will never remember her mother. Her 4 1/2 yr old will have some memories. He just kept asking where Mommy was. The other 3 boys held their heads high and cried silent tears.

Not that anything good can come out of this, but her Kelly’s mother donated her organs. That is what Kelly would’ve wanted.

She worked as a CNA on my floor and was going to school to be a Paramedic. She would’ve graduated in 2 weeks. Some of the other CNA’s on my floor have been making ribbons to sell. The money is being donated to Harbor House. Yesterday, the flight crew that brought her into the hospital came up and they all bought a ribbon to wear. Today pretty much everyone in the hospital has bought one. Staff, volunteers, patients, family, and visitors. In just 2 days, we have raised over $1000.

I just don’t understand how this could’ve happened. I made the mistake of listening to the 911 phone call. That will haunt me for a long time. Her rat bastard husband did this while the 2 youngest were home. Thankfully Kelly’s mom was there and got the kids into the bathroom. They didn’t see what happened.

Watching her oldest son sit in the church pew with his baby sister in his arms broke my heart. He was so stoic throughout until the end, he had to get up and leave the ceremony.

My head had not processed this yet. My heart refuses to. This is a friend who I met regularly for a lunch date. I helped her with her homework. I let her practice starting IV’s on me.

She was a truly caring person who never had a bad word to say about anyone. I love her and miss her so much. May she rest in peace and may her children find comfort in knowing that they were her whole world.

Ok, so I found this over at Emerald’s blog and thought it would be fun to do.

The first 3 people to leave a comment on this post will receive a gift from me “sometime during this year”. The prize is a surprise and will be mailed anywhere in the United Sates or Canada. I will spend some time visiting the three winner’s blogs to try to get to know them better, to give me a better idea of what might make a nice gift for them.

Then they will unexpectedly receive a gift from me at some point during the year. You must post this same thing (Paying it Forward Giveaway) on your own blog and then come back and leave a comment telling me you’re in, along with a link.

Remember, only the first 3 comments participating in the Pay It Forward Giveaway will receive a gift.

Recap of the Rules:

1. Be one of the first three to leave a comment to this post, with the link to your Pay It Forward Giveaway post.

2. Be willing to follow through on sending out one prize each to three lucky winners of your contest.

3. Make sure your profile has contact information available.

I was thinking that since many of us read/comment on the same blogs, that we should limit being one of the first 3 commenters to only 1 blog. That way every one has a chance to have fun!