Dude, I’m Screwed
August 25th, 2009 | 
Author: I am one week into my big return to school. When I used to say that, I would hear trumpets playing in the background. Kinda like in the old Imperial margarine commercials. Now when I say, I hear the funeral march playing. Yes, the honeymoon is over. I am no longer enthused with my decision to go back to school.
Its only one class. That’s all I’m in right now. Its one class at a time. Not like that’s a back breaker or anything. Its still full time. It comes out 12 credits a semester.
But I have apparently become a little less intelligent since I graduated. Maybe more than a “little less”. My ego is not happy. Which means my mind is not happy. Which in turn makes me a very sad, weepy, depressed bitch. Yep. That’s where we are folks. Come on over to Happyville….population 0.
I got my grade back today on my first assignment. I got a C. I don’t get C’s. I’ve never gotten a C before in my life. Except in high school. But I was busy with other priorities back then. Ever since I’ve had to pay for my education, I’ve never gotten anything below a B. And I had a fit at those B’s. I received a total of 4 of them on assignments. The memory is burned into the forefront of my brain.
This C has turned me upside down. Is it a sign? An omen? A foreshadowing of horrors to come? I want to quit. But quitting isn’t in my nature. I don’t want to set that kind of example to Taylor. You don’t quit when it gets tough. But I want to. I really, really want to.
My stomach hurts. I internalize my stress. I’m going to go take half a bottle of Tums and watch TV. And try to forget that C exists.
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Um, a C is passing dude!
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…be happy you aren’t like me and you just got out of high school and are working full time to support yourself you can’t even manage to pass ANY damn classes so you just quit college.
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Dude – I know what you mean. When I was in college I got ONE final grade of a “c” and that was only because my accounting teacher wound up grading on a curve because we were all doing so badly. I don’t even want to think of how many D’s I got in that class.
I consoled myself with the fact that I am math dyslexic. Seriously. I’ve never gotten better than a D in a math class, even though I got straight A’s in everything else.
It will get better – you just need to get back on the horse so to speak. Once you are used to juggling the added responsibility of school because, let’s face it, even only one class at a time is a lot to add to your already heavy life load, you’ll rockstar this school thing. I know it.
I believe in you and I love you.
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I know you can do this. Look at it this way – now you know what the teacher expects… hang in there!
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I have a lot of C’s. A lot.
My GPA is barely a 3.0 average.
In the classes we are taking a C is fine. Trust me, they make it that hard.
I was never a C student until I was a biology major-pre-med.
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I’ve been working on a Master’s Thesis for four damned years. So, I know a little something about enthusiasm waning. As for getting a “C”… don’t worry, it’s just a grade. If it *really, really* bothers you, you could take the class again.
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Oh honey, it takes some time to get back into student mode- you have to teach yourself how to learn/write/study again. This is just a starting point, things will pick up.
I absolutely know how you feel…
xo
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This is for your bachelor’s right? It takes a month, sometimes more, to get back in the swing of things. Don’t panic (I can say that I graduated 5 years ago), breathe, and relax. It will get better. We all know you can do this. You are a smart chicky, it will be ok. ((HUGS))
Oh, you know I know how you feel! *Giantest of HUGS*
You can do this. You will find your footing and overcome. It’s been a long time since you were in school; you need to allow time to adjust. You’re going to do this, and you’re going to kick ass while doing it. Hang in there!
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Didn’t you know? They changed the grades since you were in school. Here are the grades in order from highest to lowest and what they mean:
C stands for “Cool!”
B stands for “Bitchin”
F stands for “Fab”
D stands for “Decent”
A stands for “Awful”
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